One thing that Im sure of is that probably whatever Im feeling within me is just attachment? To care for you, to see you happy.. everything. I dont know for love. What is love? Yup, I dont know how you have been now, neither do I wanna make myself miserable by texting you again, but I know deep down I still care. Im not gonna crawl back to you and beg for your return anymore. We are on our separate ways now.. Cross path again someday, maybe? I hope, but im not pinning high hopes on such miracles.

And of course, after all that I have been through, Im very much convinced that Im not suitable to be in a relationship, where my insecurities has never failed to kill every single relationship that I once used to cherish. And in order to prevent more heartbreaks, more unnecessary quarrels, more unhappy ending, probably the best thing to do is to stay single. For life? Im not sure.. For all the things I've heard, for all the things others had told me about, for all the things I used to believe yet they turned into dust.. I lost the faith.

We came to this world alone, and we will also leave this world the same way as we arrived here. Maybe someday I will find that faith again. Oh well.. but im stronger than before, honestly. I thank God that somehow the struggle I was in has reduced to the minimal. All along I know God has better plans for me, for us. We will be fine.. I will be fine.

"Dont cry because it's over. Smile because it happened".