there's nothing much for me to blog today as school ended as early as 12.30pm! oh, i've been yearning weekends to arrive and finally it did! hahas. after school, huifen and i went for gym session. it's a waste of money for her to join me in gym i would say, as there's hell lots of workouts which she thinks they'd cause adverse effects on her body, meaning she doesnt want to create unwanted muscles. er.. but gym-ing is usually done to change fats into muscles, so.. hahas. i dunch noe, perhaps swimming is more suitable for her and that's her passion too. i suggested that she'd go for a swim while i'll go for gym next time round. hahah.

after gym, i went for the typhoid injection. seriously, i've no idea where the hell that clinic is and i've been walking in circles again at jurong east central just to find that sickening clinic. the worse thing is, when i was about to give up searching after that 30-45 mins, i saw that clinic located at a place where it is blocked by the roadshow held at the central. like what the hell -.- no wonder i couldnt find the clinic man. zz.

i hate going to private clinic alone, as in, i dunch mind going to polyclinic all by myself because everyone, regardless of whether you're old, young, male, female, tall, short, fat or thin, going there alone is no big deal. however, when i stepped in this clinic, the eyes of the awaiting patients were ALL ON ME! they gave me a look as if they were trying to conclude that i am pregnant. -.- come on, it doesnt mean that teenagers who seek treatments in clinics alone means they are pregnant. DUH! no wonder the commercials have been showing things like dunch anyhow judge people just because they have tattoos or they looked young and cradle a baby with them and stuff. =/

went into the room and upon seeing the needle, fear engulfed me seriously. i've never been afraid of injections when i was young. in fact, i remembered very vividly that i looked forward to every vaccinations during primary school days. sound quite sick right? hahas. the other girls were crying over the vaccinations but i never did. thinking back, it was hilarious to hear what the nurses had told me. they said, "not bad ar. inject already still can smile smile. see the other girls, they're crying already." hahahah. perhaps as i start to age, i'm more wary of the sharp pain inflicted on my body, thus i experienced it when the nurse inject that not-so-thin needle on my arm today. the aftermath wasn't nice as my whole arm could feel sore. it lasted for quite some time though.







sometimes i feel that im an unfilial daughter. i dunch talk much at home and all i do is go to work, use laptop, eat, and den sleep. the interactions with my parents and my siblings aren't there. i want to be close with them, and i want to bring them out for dinner or sth, but i wont be getting my money till the end of the month. last wk, i intended to go out to find my parents as they were having their breakfast somewhere near the vicinity of our place. but, i woke up too late and i didnt manage to have breakfast with them. and it has been quite some time since we sit down as a family of 6 and have dinner tgt at home. i really miss those days.

and i wanna say this to the whole world that, I LOVE MY DAD AND MUM FOR WHAT THEY'VE DONE TO KEEP THIS FAMILY GOING. I APPRECIATE THAT ALOT, THOUGH I DIDNT SAY THAT OUT. AND I MAY BE QUIET AT HOME, BUT SOMETIMES THERE'S REALLY THE URGE TO TALK TO THE BOTH OF YOU, BUT I CANT SEEM TO FIND A COMMON TOPIC TO. I JUST WANT THE BOTH OF YOU TO KNOW, I LOVE THE BOTH OF YOU VERY MUCH. im very scared that i wont do well in my studies. i dunch wanna let the both of you down, for most of the hard earned money you've earned have been used for our studies. i've been rebellious, i haven't been a good girl i believed. i dunch noe why my memory has been failing me since i stepped into polytechnic. all the things i've studied just didnt come out right for the exams. and what i regretted most is i get involved in r/s which would really affect my studies. if i were to repeat my yr 2 sem 1, i make sure that this time round, i wont let r/s take place anymore. of cuz, i hope that i wont have to repeat. it's silly, to do badly for studies just because my mood is affected by the hurt i received in r/s. i've found the old jiahui back, the jiahui that really wants to do well in her studies. hopefully this spirit would keep me going even till next sem ends.

MUM AND DAD, I LOVE YOU, SERIOUSLY. these are my heart-felt words.