life has became extremely mundane. i dread going to school now, though everyday is filled with unexpected experiences and happenings which i dunch even think i'd be in. workload has increased and i'm beginning to feel the stress i'm feeling being a teacher. the students homework became part of my homework. revisions for students in turn became mine. today, i have to sit down to mark their homework and it isnt fun at all. not only that, setting questions for their revision worksheets is a headache too.

it isnt fun being a teacher. the passion for teaching is fading, and the enthusiasm is almost 70% gone. everyday other day, i have to wake up extremely early just hoping to have a chance to get squeezed in the crowded bus. if i miss the bus, that's it. it means i have to hail a cab and waste my money and this week, i've spent 2 cab fares already. imagine that! zz.

i dunch understand why sec 1 boys behave like primary 5 kids. when will their maturity start developing?! zz. i seriously am thinking how on earth can the teachers bear their nonsense in class, and i really meant NONSENSE! kids like to hit their table and having their pens clanging on the metal, and create that idiotic "melody" heard when cheering for soccer team. like what the hell man. what's so nice about that? what's so nice about that rythem? zz. and what's so nice about throwing little pieces of paper on a girl's hair, what's so nice about pulling each other's shirt, what's so nice about teasing disabled classmates, what's so nice about moving about when the teacher is talking and what exactly is so nice about shouting across the class! more of awe or sth?! zz. my patience is wearing off soon enough.

and what on eath is going on man. im got myself lost in the school. i walked circles just to find one particular class and what's embarrassing is, i have to get a prefect to bring me to that class. i hate this job seriously! !@#$%^&* thank god tmr is friday alreay! finally, the end of the week arrived and i dunch have to see the kids.