before turning in, i want to get this entry out. hahas.

work was tough today, especially when you learnt something and you only get to practice once, when next, you have to do it all by yourself. it's not as if i am a newbie in pepperlunch, but i just feel very lost today, and i really meant VERY LOST.

well, allen taught me how to do POS before, which is counting the money and all the documentations stuff at the end of the day of sales. i only get to practice only once, with his guidance along the way, and today, i have to do it all my myself, without anyone's help.

i seriously screwd up everything today. paper roll for the cashier tray was stuck, did not do X sales, cut the wrong sales journal, etc. oh my god, and you know how i usually react, PANIC! i was fretting over how to roll the journals, how to fax the stuff, how to count the money for the tray, how to do this and how to do that, when all the other stores of the foodcourt already have their lights off. luckily i have suanling, and also there's this good management uncle who's willing to help me with the cash register's paper roll. thanks suanling for your kind assistance in helping me to write those stupid documentations. and thanks uncle, for your understanding((:
while doing those stuff, my stomach was having some serious pain. it's not a cramp nor pain when you feel you're going to do your bowels. it's just pain at the area of stomach and it's really unbearable.

the pain worsened when we finished doing everything. i could hardly walk properly and i constantly wrapped my stomach with my hands tightly as it was real painful. however, im still able to walk though. i'm really glad that the one im working till closing today was suanling, as we're going home together. if not, i guessed while walking home, i might have fainted due to the serious hurt i felt from the stomach. was feeling real groggy and i was wincing while walking to the bus stop. thank god i have the support of suanling's. i pretended to be alright but suanling knew i wasnt. it's pretty obvious though. hahas. my hands are shivering and my lips turned dry. in all, i just wanna show my appreciation to suanling! sometimes i really thank god for giving me such a bestie for me. ehh suan, really thanks ar.((:

den chatted on bus and home sweet home. i think im not going to work tml if i still feel that unknown stomach ache im having just now. time to sleep(:

**sometimes i feel stupid to give in everything, yet receiving nothing in return. perhaps im selfish, and i expect you to give in some too. i dunch expect you to be touched when i show you some concern, but a little sign of appreciation can lift my day. sigh. you didnt noe, isnt it?

where were you when i needed you the most? what were you doing when i was feeling so ill? all these questions remained unsolved in my head.**