hais. well. i'm not in my best mood now. dunch noe wat happen.

hais. jus feel very fuck'd up out of sudden till when i return home, in the lift, i wanted to scream so much but couldn't do it. and i jus vent out by hurting my fist. dumb? ya i noe. i din noe y i did tt either. and it hurts.

hais. it jus hurts beneathe when u noe tt others din call u to go out wit them onli when someone asks u to. i'm feeeling the same thing like how liyin did. i mean though i say i really do understand. but hais. it just hurts. i din noe tt i can tear over friends too. when msging suan, hais. somehow i can feel tt i wanna cry out. but i hold back. i noe there's alr tears, but i suppress them. the feeling jus sucks. i mean no one will understand how i feel. u all can scold mi for all u wan. but i jus feel very hurt cuz some outings i din noe abt anyth. like the studying in the lib on tues. hais. i din wanna make it known cuz i'm afraid tt u guys will be angry with mi when i say i have no frens. i noe i have frens, but i dunch have good friend. hais. even typing this out makes mi hurt and tear. wtf. am i such a weakling?!! hais. never mind. take it easy. mayb it's onli a trivial matter, but i'm like making a fuss? hais. i din wanted to. my mood jus sank each time i'm being reminded of.

though i've not known minyi for v long, but at least her observation is good. she noes i'm sad over sth and tries to ask mi abt it. but i din tell her anyth. jus smile to her.

i noe i'm gonna lose u as my gd fren soon. cuz once u're back with the one u love, i cant go out wit u anymore. jus to avoid misunderstandings. hais. tt's the reason why i'm so down right from the moment i noe abt their breakup this morning. hais. it's all accumulated. mayb it's all fated.
dunch understand why when i'm sad i can still comfort u this morining. tt feeling is so heart-wrenching. hais.