jus now go class outing at bugis. sians is the word to describe.
den go home tt time saw yiliang,the cute hy guy.cant imagine tt i can meet upwith him there even at bugis. i din see him intially.well, den i turned, i saw him..
i was shocked and din smile,jus gave hima shock look. but he smiled. so ya. instinct tells mi to smile to him. and WE smiled to each other fianlly. he's cute,really. den i'm still thinking whether i shd take up the ss job or not. yu's going to get transferred tml. and this time it's real. dunch noe.. dunch noe.. everyth jus seems so confusing and frustrating..

dunch noe wat's wrong. my mood aint good these few days, if u guys ever notice. everyth seems jus so.. hais. lied on the bed and somehow the tears jus dropped when i and tt person almost quarrel. i jus wanna scream my lungs out. everyth seems so tiring for mi, seems so sick to mi.. jus feel like screaming. but i still have to fake a smile infront of my family. hais. u guys dunch noe how it feels when u have to fake a smile.

i dunch noe why even trivial matters i mind so much from tt person.i dunch noe wad'swrong.i jus dunch noe.. i asked tt person to come rollerblade wit us. but the ans ain't positive and i mind so much till i gave tt person att.i din mean to derrs. hais. it jus hurts and disappointed when tt person aint around. i noe i shdn't think this way. i myself wanted to let go derrs.i really wanted to. but it jus cant. i really really dunch noe wad i;m thinking and y i wanna give tt person att. i spoke everyth out to tt person of wat i'm thinking when we're quarrelling. everyth i said is wat i'm thinking. but i noe tt person has it's prob too. i dunch noe.i noe i shdn't said those things to tt person. but i jus couldnt control cuz i really feel very frustrated jus now.. hais. we quarrelled. but it seems okie lerrs. tt person open up and toldmi it'sprob. and it's onli natural tt i care for it. it's jus natural intstint.if i dunch care, i wont feel good,though i'm feeling sad because of tt person. hais. somehow after caring for tt person, i dunch feel tt sad anymore. though i'm still not feeling tt good, but i'm better than the time we quarrel. hais.. i dunch wish to rmb the quarrels.i onli rmb i told tt person i dunch wanna see tt person sad anymore. and this is wat the person replied. it says tt it also dun wanna see mi getting sad because of it anymore. when i read this, i teared. i dunch noe y. this sentence jus seems so.. i dunch noe. maybe this sentence is the first sentence tt the person said to mi the very first time. it seemsvery vivid. very. cuz i really teared out.

i jus wanna say..
u still have a choice. i really hope to see u happy.
i dunch wanna see u sad anymore.
and i'll healmyself,i promise.