Been wanting to text the people around you to find out how you've been, but at the same time, i cant find the courage to do it because of the fear that i may have lost you to someone forever. Been having the same dream, same nightmare everyday.. what are those dreams trying to tell me? To brace up and move on, or to be upset everyday everytime i get up so that i will be numb enough one day?

Im really unsure.. Please dont haunt me anymore. It sucks to be reminded. And it feels worse to keep brushing it aside in the day and kept being haunted even when im asleep. Still, it's a routine to stalk you on fb even though i cant even see whatever that is on your timeline.

Sometimes I wonder if you'll still do the same, but at the same time, I know how you work.. I know how heartless you can be sometimes. While im frowing over you, will you be, at the same time, feeling upset that it is over between us?

Ha. Why am I so naive? Definitely you wont feel the same, because you've found someone who make your heart race again. Sigh.

Pathetic, really. Downright pathetic to just sit here and being haunted every now and then. Can never find or will never find the courage to befriend you again.