Im almost on the verge of begging on my knees to God, that i need some guidance to my relationship adversity. Everyday I'm living in denial that everything's still going fine, but the fact is every inch of my heart is constantly bitten by your actions. You no longer text me as often and no longer call me as much.. it just makes me wonder if everything I used to have over the past one year is gone for good. As much as Im glad to know the truth, I'm no longer in my mode of sanity. Always feeling disturbed by this issue, I cant concentrate on my work, my studies, my reports. Everything seemed to have come to a haul. I dont want to lose you. I'm afraid to lose you, you get me? You are the only one who gave me whatever I've yearned in a relationship. You were the one who fought so much to get me. We've come a long way and I really dont want this fairy tale to end just like this.. I'm lost, I really dont know what I should do to get this relationship going. Almost forgot how it feels like to be this hurt already because whenever Im with you, Im always on cloud nine. This torment is killing me slowly and somehow I know Im travelling on a slow death. Im beginning to think that I've become an annoyance to you because I know Im getting even more clingy now.. I hate this! I hate myself! If this is really going to end, i know i wont be fine for a very long time till i find someone like you again.

We were certain that both of us are the ones we want to spend our lifetime with, but I can no longer speak for you now. Vic, I really hope we will get through this.