I never knew how it feels like when your efforts arent being recognised and your partner doesnt seem a little bit appreciative of what you had done. It'd never happened on me before, but yea.. I experienced it now. Not sure if my imagination's running wild again.. But i do feel that way. I dont know how i should put it across to you because for all you know, this relationship might end if i were to discuss this issue with you. It came to my realization that we are of different worlds. The way we think seems so different. You are smart and knowledgable, and sometimes when my inferiority bites me real hard, i just feel that you can find someone better. Someone who has a higher intellect than i do. In stupid. Wanted to plan a short getaway with you but i received a negative response. Yes, what you've said does make sense. But why does it feel that im stupid to have planned all these and you arent being appreciative? Cant make up the words to describe this feeling im experiencing. Was i thinking too much? I doubt i am. Suffocated; i feel like giving up. To give up this and be alone. I dont know. Why does it feel that it's so difficult to love you? Im not worthy of you. Sometimes i get reminded of him. It's not that i hadnt let go of that relationship. I just feel that i wont be rejected if it were to be him. What am i thinking?