As i browsed through my cousin's wedding photo, i guessed those photos sort of plant a wedding seed in my brain. It grows and magnifies.. conspicuously significant enough for me to think of my future.

Sometimes, or maybe most of the time, i wonder if it's ever possible to marry him. I mean, certainly without any doubt, i love him. I want to spend the rest of my life with this man, but will this marriage jeopardize my kinship and friendship because no one is willing to accept us, the uncommon couple. Can i walk down the aisle just like any other girl would with the man i love? Would it remain as a non-fiction fantasy or would i be preening myself with pride as i don on a customized wedding gown five years down the road? And sometimes it sets me thinking.. Am i fighting for losing battle though it's all worth it?

I don't know about the opinions of couples out there at this age. I don't consider my age as tender anymore. And I'm not trying to sabotage or sow discord, but if you know that you don't love that man, then it's time to set him free. Because by deceiving yourself further it may do both parties harm. Love is not about money. It's a special bond between two parties. Yes of course anyone would be happy to receive presents and gifts from out partners, but if you ever ask yourself whether you are truely happy with what you have, i guessed a corner of your heart will winced.. Because the love isnt really there anymore. I deceived myself in the past. I know the pain. Just don't want anyone else to follow my footstep.