Sometimes, I feel that it's just loneliness that lead to those moments of folly. Maybe I shouldn't cover myself with excuses, I'm just a player.

Many a times, I've been reading your messages over and over again instead of the rest. I know you're the only one my heart yearns for. I want your care and concern so much that I wish you were here 24/7 with me. The hectic working life you have just makes no room for you to text me, show me concern whenever I need and stuff. The most one-sided texts I sent, the more stupid and silly I feel about myself. I want to text no one but you. Bi, sometimes I wish you can quit your job and get a 9-5pm work. I need you. The more I play the field, the more my heart misses you. Playing around just covers the loneliness I felt, filled the gaps that I don't get from you but the person I want is just you. Sigh. I'm just someone that cant live without love. Yes, I'm so dependent on the ones that care for me. That's just me. I no longer want to play because I'm tired. I just want you to be by my side. :(

It's our monthly anniversary again and here I am, ranting.