What was I even thinking? Why can't I just stop this? Why am i such a disgrace?! Omg, why can't I have more discipline and just stop it? Yes means yes, no means no. SIGH.
I'm sad, but what can I do? Just smile and let it go, that's the thing.
Didn't I claim that I can be indifferent of the answer before asking for it?
What's with the dejection now?
SIGH, Jiahui, where is your backbone?