Life's too short to get upset over something trivial. We are born to play and indulge in the world filled with deadly sins and we cant deny that everyone is a victim in this world, be it getting cheated and played upon or the vice versa. Sometimes, or maybe most of the time, you court trouble on your own accord because you just want that moment of fun. You dont care about the consequences you believed it will happen and just go ahead with the things you wish to do. When you get yourself hurt, you blame yourself why you went ahead with what you desire in the first place. Filled with ultimate regrets and disappointments, there's nothing you can do except crying over spilled milk.

Life's just filled with uncertainties you cant predict. Who will ever know what will happen in the future when you just want to live the fullest at the present? It's just human nature to hold onto the things we can never possess and everyone's selfish to hold onto the things that they believe are beneficial to them. Sometimes, you just cant explain why you're doing certain things you think you shouldnt be doing. Perhaps it's just for the sake of amusement, happiness, replacement, or for any other ways that you think it's able to fill the gaps you're feeling. These moments are always short lived and we cant order them to be long lasting.

You just cant deny that sometimes life makes a fool out of you and it's too ironical in a way that it always behaves the opposite of how you want things to happen. You cant help yourself from trying to change what fate leaves you with and probably you need to admit that sometimes, it's really meant to be this way.

It's tough to practice self control because flashes of us keep twirling in my mind whenever I see you. Knowing that this isnt a very good sign, I continue to let myself seep into this state though I, very much, would love to deter this. Time is all I need. It's pointless to get emotional over silly stuff that's akin to a child's play. It's never love and will never be and gradually, I'll come to a point where I'll let go of this beautiful dream completely, wake up and get on with life without having to practice self control anymore. This day will come. I'm very sure of that.