I want to study and pen down notes when lecturers are talking like real soon. Don't really like the working life. It's so mundane as compared to studying. There're politics everywhere, unlike the latter. It's just merely competition and stress that you deal with. Sigh, I am really praying hard that I can get into SIT.

Sometimes I really contradict myself. I asked myself if I really want to work in the hospitality field in the future. Has it really been my wish to study in the tourism field or was it just a moment of impulse and curiosity that strikes me to study this area? Getting a degree denotes a specialization in a certain field, so do I really want to work that for life? But somehow or rather, the passion in this field is still burning in fiery red. Hope it's never going to turn blue.

There's always this second thought that follows after questioning myself. Perhaps I should be studying biomedical sciences in MDIS since I have always find genetic engineering rather fascinating. Furthermore, the credits in the degree programme covers most of the stuff i have learnt in poly. Life will be easy, wouldn't it? However, at the end of the day, the career that follows after getting that degree is to be a doctor. I don't want to deal with the life and death though. This is not what I want.

Frankly speaking, has anyone been in my state of confusion before? As in you don't know what you want to be even when your growing years is approaching the legal age of 21? And speaking of 21.. Hey, I feel that my life is wasted! If i were to enter an express class and chose JC instead of poly, I would have gotten a degree by the age of 21! Okay, maybe it's the number of A levels students in my working environment that triggers me to say this. They're just 19 and they've completed their A levels, awaiting for University admission. =/ But well, at least I feel that my life is much richer than them.

Anyway, there're instances where I envy the guys too because they have another 2 NS years to prepare themselves before entering the workforce. Ladies dont have that privilege though. I'm always green with envy. Okay, maybe i should learn how to be contented with life.

And let's hope that I can get into that degree course in UNLV. (: