Probably because i had too much caffeine, i couldnt really concentrate. Not as in i couldnt stay awake- well in fact it wont pose a problem to keeping my eyes wide open to the next morning- it felt as if reading takes place too fast, so much so that i literally read and nothing goes in my mind. My eyes screened every individual words, fast, but just too fast that i'm scared. It happened consecutively two days straight, or should i say, the effect is still manifesting gradually within me now. Damn, this made me so nervous whereby i shouldnt be in the least nervous while typing this piece of shyt now. But i cant stop having coffee, because i need this substance to keep me awake for studying. How?

FYP's a headache. Even when im revising my notes, the images of FYP just couldnt stop flashing through my mind. Report's gonna be due soon, and very soon December will end. Analysis are still pending, and some results are not well collated. Damn, thinking of how this FYP is going to affect the GPA just gives me the creeps. Everyone says that FYP can pull one's grades up if one manage to obtain an A or a B. But given the characters of Ngian, a C or a D would probably be written down in our log book. Sigh, i cant help but worry for this project. Did i not take this project seriously enough? Sometimes i wish i could go an extra mile to make some of the doughs for all the necessary analysis results. But is this possible? Fibre content analysis is not even done yet. How? Am i getting too impatient? I blame myself for not organising the activities well, and very much trusting Kennie. We wasted almost 8 months on doing nothing for the project just to wait for the results of the dough to be sent for external analysis, in which this didnt even take place. Ridiculous, that is. I dont ask for an A, because i know we really dont deserve that grade. Sigh, can i ask for a B, a minimum B is good enough. Leniency is not going to take place, but the effort we put in for the previous 3 mths are recognisable. God, will miracles befall on us again on the very last minute just like the Koufu competition? Okayy, this is really affecting my mood. Shall stop here about FYP.

Shall go back to my studies now.