This relationship always seems to sink itself into various complications and implications. Was it me, or was it you?

Both of us seemed really tired now, not physical but mentally drained. How irony it is when both are so in love with each other, but at the same time, both cant get along well peacefully? Why must there be quarrels occuring every single month? Why cant we get away from the arguements, quarrels and fight? I never ever thought that we would quarrel this much and have always believe that you treat me well, feed me with good food, shower me with love and concern. Tell me, does it really sum up to not understanding you enough?

Take the lastest incident for example. I know I'm being unreasonable on my side, but I'm only 20 this year, and perhaps my thinking and acts stays at the age of 16/17, it's ridiculous to prepare myself for family dinner and stuff. Nobody likes to be put in an awkward situation, and it applies to me as well. I'm not your wife, guy. I'm just your girlfriend. I know I'm selfish because this time, I kept my stand firm. Unlike the previous relatioships, I would just bear with it and swallow everything. Sorry, it's just that part of me, at the back of my mind, repeating fervently, "You should just stop accomodating."

Maybe 21st birthday is really important to you, and maybe not putting myself in an awkward position is really important to me, none of us seems to take a step back and think rationally what is right for the both of us.