rattling?

sometimes i think boyfriend really treats me too good to the extend that i really take things for granted, and yet he still doesnt bear any grudges on me or grumble and stuff.

initially, we'd planned to go on a moive today but because i was held up with my research and assignments, we cancelled everything. perhaps i got rather paranoid, i asked him umpteen times why didnt he flare up on me. well, all he did reply was, "because at least you still can come to my house and spend time with me mahh." aww.. his reply kinda stung my guilt. this really got me real guilty-conscious for the day. sometimes i really think i've treated him real bad? it's his 21st bday party this coming saturday, and to think that i'm actually working. i guessed i can be made as the worse girlfriend ever! fancy submitting saturday's schedule to evelyn last monday because i didnt really take note of the date of his party, and most of the time i wasnt listening to what he was saying. gosh! and saturday's schedule is already out! SHIT!

and so, as usual, i kept him in the dark about this because i was afraid that he might get disappointed. im aware that he is expecting my presence on that day but.. oh man.. what if i cant find anyone to replace me? got pretty stressed up and er.. kinda told him about it and though he still sound nonchalant, i can sense that tinge of disappointment in his text. cross fingers man. i seriously hope i can find someone to replace siol. LOL.

it's kind of fun to play the word game with boyfriend while walking from lakeside station to my house. this word game kinda test our vocabs and seriously, his vocabs are somewhat better than mine! he got my eyes and mouth opened widely simultaneously for a few seconds when he pronounced the word "arid" out. OMG, i dont even have a clue what "arid" means! there he goes, he scored and it's a tie between us, this stupid word game. HAHAHA. oh i even remembered that we played the dice game in his new touch phone. it's actually a game to see how "big" our digit is while playing the dice. zz. but well, though it's stupid, it's kinda fun too. HAHA.

and one more thing. i seriously am missing my mum's home-cooked food and i somehow just wish that i can stay at home for a day and not hanging out with anyone. why? because i've either been working, hanging out with friends or boyfriend till late nights. every time i'm home, everyone's asleep, except for my sis, every night pia-ing for her MST.

oh god, and i havent been doing the assignment though just the research part. the worse thing is, i've been dealing with SEA WORMS with every research. how gross! they look so much like dicks that are motile. just the sight of their pictures makes me go nauseous.

alright, enough of all the craps and i shall start with my sea worms assignment, even though with much reluctance.