I'm not very sure if you've ever read my blog before, but if you ever did, then this entry is for you.

Today marks the 7th month of our relationship. Both of us are certain what had happened lately and are very sure that things aren't the same anymore. I'm aware that it's me that causes the insecurity you hold within; it's me that causes you to feel drained; it's me that ruined this relationship. I tried my best, i really did. Perhaps you didnt see the effort i put in to forget him, but i really did put in my best to.

We once joked that if our feelings ever fade, the other party can use some crayons to colour them. But.. somehow no matter how hard or how many attempts we try to enrich these smirched colours, the drawing doesnt appear to be the same anymore. Maybe u've put in more effort, but it takes two hands to clap.

Mei shi. i'll be okie. we just need to talk this through.