that silly gave me a panda as a pre-departure gift. okay.. it's stupid, but the panda is cute. he is forgiven. HAHA. it's nice spending time with him. (: boyfriend will always be boyfriend.

putting that aside, it's been so long since i last slacked at kfc, eating and chatting non-stop with the peeps. seriously, i feel like taking a long break, a break from work, studies, r/s. sometimes i wish that i could have just a few minutes of my own, to just sit down& read a book, or just gazing at the sky at a corner of my own. perhaps it's because i was too stressed and fucked up with the things around me. i wish to take a breath, a deep one.

it's a sunday today and it's kinda rare that you'll see me work. got stuck in the train for 5-10 minutes because someone fell down and hurt her leg. thank god, the train didnt ran over anyone. phew!

saw ALOT of families dining at PL today. it kinda dawned on me on how long i have never been out with my parents and sisters. i miss my childhood days, where mum and dad would bring us out, shop around, play and etc. however as i grow older, i seldom join them for outings anymore because i'm either busy working or i am too tired to even drag myself out of my bed. yes, you'd definitely ask me to stop working, but i cant. i need $$. somehow, i yearned to go on a holiday with them.. and i think the most vivid holiday trip i had was boarding the cruise. i wish that we could go on a holiday again & spend time together..

i hate my life.
70% of my time goes to work,
20% of my time goes to friends/bf,
5% of my time goes to doing the things i like,
while only 5% of my time is with my family.

): i wanna spend MORE time with my family.
): i need a rest.

*i will stop being naive.* it's a promise to myself.