I guessed I've pretty much moved on, no longer clinging onto the past anymore. I know I've repeated this many times and you might think it doesnt jibe with reality. However, this time I'm really certain of what my heart is saying. My heart acts with seeming impunity now(:

Certainly, some flashbacks still do appear vividly in my mind, but it isnt a frown that ensued anymore. It's a smile; it's how that heart beats with serenity; it's the beautiful memories that stays. It's been almost a year and I'm glad that misery of that r/s wont haunt me anymore. How did i even manage to fall for a guy like him? No idea, to be concised. I didnt regret falling for him so deeply either.

Time does heal the wounded heart one has within. Some takes just a second to forget another, while some takes more than a decade to totally let go of someone dear. It is indeed a tough journey to put some of the wonderful memories from the mind to the deepest corner of the heart. For this to happen, it is never easy.

I've further concluded that if that someone dear doesnt contact you and both of you dont see each other on the street/class/workplace, you tend to let go faster. Sometimes one has to be hard on him/herself in order to achieve that aim one wish to obtain-letting go. Dont bother to look at his/her pictures, reviewing the conversations both of you held, thinking of the places both of you went before, because it will only leave you with more hurt, and you wont be able to let go. I broke these rules

Some songs do relate to some of the memories i had with him, eg. No Air, Thank God I found you & Tonight. I tend to get very much affected after listening to these songs in the past, but not now anymore. Those are only songs to me now, with no cardinal meaning. However, memories stays as well as Hitsugaya Toshirou- I guessed i wont forget this either.

It will defintely be a good headstart to continue with the new term in Dalian and i hope he is doing great now.(:

haozhi,
though it's a pity that i couldnt see you before i leave for Dalian,
i still hope to wish you the best of luck.
(: