this is fucking stupid & blood boiling! i couldnt pay the full amount for my bills because of a mere twenty cents! let me be more explicit. what i meant was, i thought my bank account would have enough balance for deduction, BUT, because of that mere twenty cents, i couldnt pay the full amount for my bills. so, i end up paying 10 bucks less because i was trying my luck to see whether i had that sum of money for payment. and yes, i had that sum of money(not the full course for my bills). HOWEVER, i went to check my balance out at the nearest atm machine and tsk, because of a mere 20 cents, i couldnt pay the rest of the balance for my bills. it's just a twenty cent! and the worse thing is, this 10 bucks will be carried forward to the next month's bill because of that mere twenty cents. considering that 7 % GST for the total bill, with that 10 bucks being carried forward to next mth's, well, i reckon that figure appearing in my bill summary will be astonishing. how great is that? zz. i seriously am indigent now.

anw, kennie(supervisor, i believe? LOL) told the interns that we should "chiong" for what we want when we're young and never be afraid of what obstacles you have infront of you. many a time, when one tends to study too much, he/she will know what's the risk of doing certain things, and this certainly would hinder he/she from pursuing dreams/ambitions. he asked everyone what is our ambition/dream and well, i guessed there's this one ambition which i hope to fulfil, and it's doing interior designing. i regret for not taking up this course because i bought the negative opinions from others. actually, there's really one wish which i hope i can fulfil, and that is to learn a piano. yea, many of you will certainly say i'm too old to learn. i think so too, but what kennie said made me realise that we shouldnt even care for what others say because we rule our own life.

he added, "only you know what you really want to do. wanna do jiu chiong. dunch wait until you very very old like me already den start to do what i like. always have a plan, like what age to what age must accomplish what. so that you have a goal in life. i'm not asking you all to think everyday about what you all want lar, but at least you know you have a goal and you work towards it." well, how true is that?(:

have you ever give a thought on your ambition? do ask yourself if you ever plan to fulfil that ambition or dream. (:

i miss my dearest J.(: