my laptop's dead. it shut itself from me this morning and went into a deep coma. ): damn, i felt so hurt when i know it's dead. it's as dear as a husband to me, something which i cant live without. yes, it's dead, real dead and i dunch even have the money to bring it to the doctor this time round. ):

everything's gone. the conversations of me and him will be gone forever. if it's being re-formatted, yes, everything will seriously be gone. maybe god's giving me signal. without me knowing, i went to read the past conversations i've saved that i held with him. sweet, sad, hurt, bitter, funny and everything.. they'll be gone forever.. yes, before my laptop died on me, i actually have the chance to read those conversations for the last time. maybe this is an indication from god that it's time to erase everything, all the memories, all the sadness, happiness that i had with him.. it's time to erase and really move on. maybe this is what god meant, and i should be grateful that this actually happened.

however, i'm sad, really sad, to the extent that i felt the pinch in the heart even when typing this. it's time to move on and really get along well with that someone. what's there to be sad about when there is really nothing left for me to be sad about. dunch cry because it's over, smile because it happened, no?

move on, and know what you're doing, what you're committed to, what you're thinking, what you're going to do next. jiayou, jiahui!