random thoughts

i'm fine, seriously.
not even in the least emotional or whatever.
relationships are fragile,
that's the only fact i learnt in r/s,
and this is also the phrase that makes me feel,
r/s is not a necessity for now.
i'm not ready, tt's what i know.

to: YOU
i dunch noe what it means. perhaps you just wanna make peace with me so that when we see each other, the awkward feeling wont be present. it's been rather disappointing to know that my bday dunch really mean a thing to you. i could pretty much guess that you've long forgotten about my bday promise you've made. nvm, i saw this coming. probably i would be glad when i receive your bday greeting, but i might just treat it as a normal msg from a casual friend too. i'm pretty sure that i've let go more than 70%. but, im not sure. although feelings did become bland, sometimes i still believe that somewhere in my heart, part of you is still in there. well, however, i've made up my mind. come what may, i'll still put studies as my priority. no more r/s for this upcoming sem, and hence, no more emotional- roller coaster ride for me. still, i hope we can maintain as good friends. hopefully the next time when our eyes meet, i hope i can receive a smile from you.(:

to: FRIEND
i felt sad for a moment when you told me you were leaving today, cuz you told me you are going to leave on thurs. but i know i felt that way only as a friend. perhaps the greatest regret i committed was, i did not allow you to have the chance to chat with me for one last time before you boarded your flight. this is one thing which have been twirling in my mind since i started my tuition session just now. i've never seen a guy as persistent as you, but im touched, somehow. well, my friend, all the best and do take care of yourself. i'll be waiting for your call/sms when you return to singapore. (: