i hate the silence he gave, the silence that stabbed me in my heart every night. xueting advised me to delete his contact in MSN umpteen times right from day 1 we broke off, but i never heed her advices. i always thought i would regret in the future. but every night whenever i sign in, i just cant help but feeling sad every time disappointment knocks in. never will i learn if i dunch use the hard way on myself, i guessed. tonight, i finally mustered my courage and deleted his contact in my list, but before i did finally clicked that "ok" button for deleting contact, i took several deep breathe, took one last glimpse of his email address stated, and did the last reminisce of what we had chatted in MSN. perhaps this is the only thing i could do now. the hard way is always heartaching, but it'd certainly aid me for my future, and for the better too. i wont guaruantee that i'll be happy after his contact is being deleted, but i believed more or less i wont be feeling anymore disappointments. one month ago, 080808, i cried very hard, but i'm sure more smiles would surface starting from today.

22.05.08 [byebye]