well, i guessed blogging is my last resort to kill my time at the chalet. i'm extremely bored, bored till death i mean.

the barbeque session was fun though. it feels like i'm involved in some camps or something. well, maybe it's due to the passion and enthusiastism from Alicia and Noh. they sure did a great thing in bringing the bonds of our class closer. they brought everyone closer, not allowing friends to be involved just in their own cliques. the feeling is great when you see yourself having fun with your friends and hearing the laughters of everyone. both of them sure kill the silence at the bbq just now. (: we had damn lots of fun, damn lots of laughter, damn lots of catching up..

of course, this time there's more couples around. everyone has grown up, and most of them are attached. those who are attached appeared sweet, whereby they feed their girlfriends with food and stuff. you can just feel the love there though. and this reminds me of my bf. though i received a call when i was in the midst of having fun, that wasnt my bf. it's some other guy. missing him was what i've been doing these few days. when i was in train just now, i saw someone wearing the shirt he has. he was hugging the girl. she looks up to him when she speaks, while the guy looks downwards to chat with her, giving her a peck on her cheeks. i didnt know why, i felt something within me. i felt a sense of enviousity for the ever first time since i've got a bf. next, missing him was what im doing. im not sure if i was missing his presence or just really him. what im aware was that he came to my mind just now. for the very first time ever since my feelings faded for him, i feel tt i missed him. weird, isnt it? i've been waiting for his calls, waiting for his smses. however, i didnt get any at all. somehow i feel tt someone else's more concern about me, while my bf doesnt. well, maybe i was the one who is at fault. never mind, i had enough too.

the room feels cold, the room reek of money, and one last thing, in this room at the chalet, i feel lonely. (maybe it's becuz im not mingling around?)

somehow, i realised that some of the feelings are back for someone. maybe it's just.. just temporary.