i cant seem to eat, i cant seem to think, i cant seem to figure out wat i really wan..

first r/s: tgt for 2 weeks plus onli. due to many quarrels, we end tt ambiguous status. had the HAPPIEST days with tt person. onli when i lose tt person, den i noe how to treasure. but its all too late alr.

second r/s: tgt for 2 months exact. had lil'l quarrels cuz i din say out my feelings to him though i had some unhappiness about him. he treated mi v good, but not as good as my first. felt happy but not as happy as the days with my first. end the r/s because i noe its unfair to him if i cont to stead with him when i still haven let go of my first.

third r/s(not confirmed yet): i'm still thinking. i dunch noe wat i really wan. do i really wanna be with him or not? from a friend, i treated him as someone special, but the feeling become a friend again, and now, shd i make him to be tt someone special again? i'm sure he can give mi unconditional love, but i'm not sure if i really can reciprocate tt love of his or not. i myself noe very well, i am a FLIRT in matter of hearts. i might jus have feelings again for my first while i'm with him.. my feelings might jus fade if i'm with him. i nv noe when my feelings can be onli one feeling-LOVE. maybe i shd give it a try to be with him?

after venting out my vexed feelings, i think i noe wat's the ans for him alr. hopefully, this decision wont become a wrong decision for the future, and hopefully the history wont repeat itself again.