happy birthday, alicia(:

firstly, i have to say sorry to alicia first. cuz i cant celebrate birthday with her cuz i have to rushed home. hais. i'm sorry alicia, but happy birthday too.

had a great time at east coast park today. ppl who went east coast include huijing, suanling, jieying, colene, xueting, mi, ch, jc, sb and kam. alien din join us): dunch noe why too. as usual, i was late when meeting them. but i wasnt as late as suan and kam. they were extremely late. hahas. den while waiting, jc keep shooting jy cuz she "lai ang". it was damn funny. well, i also larr, but jc din shoot mi. hahas. we shake hands for peace. lols.

den trained to eunos den to ecp. den at ecp. first thing we went to eat first. den after tt rent things and stuff. hmm. next was setting off to the market lorrs. den there was alot of slopes there. huijing fell quite alot of times. hmm, most of the time is my fault. i was too fast, resulting her losing her balance. sorry huijing. it's my fault. sorry lehhs sorry.

den i fell too. got hurt on my knee and hands as well. was quite painful. den when we reached the market. i tried to use some water to put onto my wound. den suan quite good. without my awareness, she used a tissue to get water from the condensation of the cups we drank and put it onto my wound without my awareness too. thanks suan(:

den when going back to return skates, hmmm. i and suan was behind everyone. den the route out of the market wasnt very smooth. den i kinda wanna fall. lols. den suan see le luff and suan mi say,"i din fall dao lehhs." =.= si suanling. lols. den after tt blade back. i think jing fall again bahhs. kam very bad. say her every 3 mins will fall. hmmm. den i think she fell again. her tights kinda wounded. take care jing(:

den xueting have shown great improvement. she bladed with colene ad i doubt they fall today. great job gals(: den as for jieying, she's getting the hang of it alr. she even tried to teach huijing worrs. not bad not bad. den they were playing ard with my hair. =.= even "chi gok par" see who to pull the tie down from my hair. wonder who's the idiot started this. zzz. SHIBAO!! i think it's him who started it if i'm not wrong. lols. den it's a trend to the rest. zzz. had a diff time tying.

den off we go to return those skates and den to bath. after bathing, suan and jy had a competition of the cube thingy. den after tt jiu off we went to ms. but i din join them.

cold war happened when i reached home. had a fight and quarrelled with my mum. hais. i noe i'm infilial. i really am. hais. i talked back to her and shouted at her very badly today for the very first time. and i cried too. hais. she shouted at mi too. hais. quarrel here and there until my sis asked mi not to talk back anymore. i think today is the day i let out everyth tt's keeping within mi. hais. i'm such an unfilial daugther to them. hais. today i tot i will be happy cuz i went to ecp to blade. but after blading, called back, and.. hais. stupid tears. cant control it even when suan asked mi what happen. fuck.

is it really my fault? my fault for not coming back to burn the incense paper? i rushed back alr. i rushed back)': but why did mum accuse mi. hais. my fault larr my fault. everything is my fault. EVERYTH!! hais. why did i cry over little things? hais. why cant those tears stop coming out? why?!! hais. she's complaining to my dad now. hais. any idea how sad i was jus now when i talk back to her? or having any idea how sad i am now too? those hahas and lols on top aren't coming out from my bottom of my heart. i jus put for the sake of putting. hais. they must be having a great time in asian kitchen. hais.

i'm sorry for giving u guys attitude when u all asked mi whether i noe how to go home or not. i'm sorry. i din mean it. i was very sad jus now. my feelings overtook mi. i'm sorry): and sorry cia, i cant celebrate bday with u. sorry. hais. i think everyone dunch nit to help mi celebrate if u all intend to. cuz i din celebrate most of u de birthday with u guys. hais. sorry, terribly. sorry...

to tt person. hey, thanks for caring. i've got more to day, but think i shall not post it here bahs. i will only keep tt good impression de as friend will always remain as friend onli. ya. i may not be sure of my feelings for him now. but for the time being, i noe i still have feelings for u. ur care is the one i wan. for the time being, i noe he's onli kinda like a guardian to mi onli. ya. he is. i jus wanna say, ur care kinda cannot be replaced by others. maybe i haven let go bahhs. i dunch noe. i noe i'm being dumb or wat. but this is what i'm feeling for this moment.