I dont know if I have really moved on from our past. It still hurts badly whenever I get reminded, but certainly I feel slightly better than before.. not crying; time did heal me a little, or should I say God has been with me all along to make me feel better.

You know.. I guessed you're the only one who sees that I've changed for the worst. Just within a night's conversation, it kinda upsets me really much that I lost someone who is really that observant, who notices every little thing about me is gone, in the embrace of someone new. Okay Im not feeling better anymore.. I feel like shit now that Im typing this..

But everyone has to move on, yes? The world's spinning everyday and you cant stop turning with the world. It's been close to 4 months.. dreadful everyday, but what can I do? Ya I know what I can do.. like a new friend told me, "Dont be too emotionally attached because no one appreciates you. Yes it IS sad, but that's life."

How true. And very demoralizing indeed.

Does love still exist?