A new wallet will represent a brand new me and a whole new beginning. It took me so much courage to buy a new one and replace with the old, because if i were to put it away, it would mean that I have nothing on me that concerns you anymore.. but now that I know that it's really time I should move on, I braced myself up while transferring all the cards to the new one.. and meantime, our polaroid photo surfaced right before me.. yea.. it hurts badly, because I would have to put that away too.. it's no longer wise to place it in my new wallet now as it will defeat the purpose of replacing it. Tonight is the night where I told myself that we have nothing to do with each other in our lives anymore.

Saw how my friends are all attached.. and saw the newly attached ones quarrelling over trivial issues. It never failed to remind how sweet we were when we were still together. All that you've taught me on how to love someone, how love should actually work.. everything.. I could easily comfort someone with your words and make them feel all better again. But not now.. It's purely fear I feel..

Some people said they are scared of committing themselves in a relationship and all these while I thought they are just trying to gain sympathy from people because they sound like they are victimizing themselves. But honestly, who would have known that I'd finally get a taste of what they are experiencing.

Yes, Im, indeed, very much afraid and I just feel that it's difficult to go into a relationship now. I see how couples expect from their partners and all these expectations they set for the other party makes them even more vulnerable; the exposure of getting hurt is paramount if their partners dont live up to their expectations.

Frankly speaking, it's tough to get myself involved in the matters of heart now. Feels like my heart is dead even though I may be attracted to someone new. Oh well.. time will heal and God is with me.

Be happy. That's what everyone says.