I wont deny, that the cause of my drifted friendship is me. Probably I didnt maintain these close friendships well, that now, no matter how I try to pull it back closer to me, I fail. Everywhere Im looking now, I see people with friends. Everyone needs friends, close friends to be precise. It's sad, or should I say, depressing, that I feel that all my close friends are gone because they dislike my boyfriend, the guy who I feel is my life.

No longer do I want to question myself what friendship really is, because I know this essential element in life is as fragile as relationship. No matter how many years of friendship you have with this friend, just a small mistake it's able to diminish the affinity you once shared with this person. I do not know what's the reason why they cant accept my boyfriend, and I seriously am clueless what they mean by 'accept'. So what if he was the third party in my previous relationship? Why condemn him as the bad guy when you guys didnt give him the chance to interact with you people? I'm not siding him because that's what I will do if this happens to my friend. Okay.. maybe it's just me. Maybe not everyone will do that for a friend.

Probably no one knows that friendship meant a lot to me, that it is as important as my kinship and relationship. I have been very affected by this.. all along I have been. Who can I tell this to when my best friend is involved. I feel pathetic, seriously. For once, in my life, I feel pathetic. Sigh okay.. probably if I continue blogging, my tears will start streaming down my cheeks.

Hope for the better. Or should I just stop hoping already?