I cant remember when was the last time I had a gym session, probably been more than 8 mths. Seriously, looking back at the things I did over the past 6 mths, I guessed Im living a very unhealthy lifestyle. Drink, drunk and being wasted is akin to a daily routine. It's a habitual behaviour which I reckoned, is hard to kick. It's amazed by how frequent I feed myself with alcohol every week and now that I try to reduce the amount of alcohol consumption, I feel so out of place. It's like after every dinner, I crave for some beer or even during dinner, I'll want to have some beer to go with it. Obviously the consequences are undesirable and I'm every bit aware of these consequences, but I cant help feeding these craves each time I have them.. Im constantly looking out for bars when there're brouchures of credit card ongoing promotions for drinks at the different bars.. and definitely it's not a good sign. I dont want to become a habitual drinker.

It's comprehendable how much difficulty one encounters to quit smoking, not because I touch these sticks but because im going through almost the same thing-alcohol. Dang! Never see myself caught in such a sticky situation before.. Brushing these craves aside certainly requires lots of determination and courage to do so when you know you can afford such 'luxury' and when you know it's so widely available in stores. Argh fuck it!

I totally need to come up with a healthy lifestyle, engage myself in this plan and kick the habit of drinking. Having these craves suggest that I may become a habitual drinker if I continue to feed on them.