although i know you're not at your best of mood, please refrain yourself from sinking into misery. i dont know what im treating you as. friends or more than just friends? i dont give a damn no more. it bothers me every single day when flashes of us appeared in my mind. was it meant to be a fateful october? people ask me why i have my face covered with frowns. i guessed the wound just need some time to heal. everyone needs time to recover an illness. every wound needs time to form a scalp to prevent it from bleeding again. same goes to me. it's time to get out of my euphoria. blame no one but myself for courting trouble and over-estimating myself that i could take control of the situation. was it really for the sake of thrill? well, maybe.

Quit thinking. That's the only thing i could do.

I asked someone who is as equally non-expressive like you do, why some people just can be non-expressive. The answer i got was, "no point being expressive where you know the only answer you will get is a nod or an okay." It hurts kinda bad when i heard that. what that person went through was having those shit thrown right in the face. oh well, maybe silence really helps.

there's someone who has been always there for me, irregards to rain to shine. he's the only reason why i grow stronger, why i live for a reason, why love, sometimes, just touched another.