SIGHHHHH. It's getting rather late, but here i am, pouring all that unnecessary sorrows.
Damn, I've realised that I changed quite alot. I mean, I dont really get upset if any girls were to talk to any of my exs when I was in a relationship with them. But this time, it kinda hit me hard in the face. Am I being too sensitive or is it that i just feel very insecure? There's a small villian in the mind that keeps telling me,' hey, what's up within them?' and sth like,'hey he seems pretty excited when she added him.'

It's getting unreasonable and I'm aware of that. There's always a devil and an angel telling me about the blacks and whites. But, arghhh... FUCK CAN. This psycological thing is getting on my nerves! I just cant stop myself from thinking about the negatives!

Yea, this time, i wont tell him how i feel. He have always been telling me about being reasonable, because if i start to get doubtful about him, he'll stop opening up to me about him. :/ I wouldnt want a quarrel either.

): but i dont feel very good now cannnnn. I wanna know what's going on! ):<

I admit that I throw tantrums at him very often these days and hence, I'm trying to get hold of myself. Arghhh, should i ask him or should i just bloody keep this thing at the back of my head and stop being too sensitive on the littlest things? GRRRRR.. this sucks a million times!

Okay.. * INHALE and EXHALE*
I shall stick to the latter- by keeping quiet and dont probe.
:/