'Low self esteem and inferiority will lead to jealousy and eventually, those will blow the trust in a relationship bit by bit.'

That was what i've published earlier when i was on facebook. Most of the time, I cant help but compare myself with the rest. Not so much in academic now but more of the appearance aspect. Did anyone tell you that i have very low self esteem? If you are not aware of it, it's not too late to know.

I AM too naive. Note that i used the word 'am' instead of 'was'. Sigh. Why didnt i think of that? Sigh. I am really affected by my low self esteem now and even though i want to talk to someone about this, it's already in wee hours and no one is here for me to rant about this stupid thing that is churning my heart to bits and pieces since that conversation. No, I cant confide this to my boyfriend because he is indirectly involved with the mess i'm feeling right now. I dont blame him because the main thing is, being too naive was the reason that caused me to seep into such misery.

Tell me why do i have to go through this agony? Do i deserve to have this kind of teeth? There's a million reasons why i hate myself and my body. On the contrary, there was a couple of occasions where i would mutter things like, 'one should be contented with what one has'. But, quotes will be deemed as quotes. No one can ever attained to that sophistics, no?

Sigh. Alright, enough of whining already! Sigh. Though i feel much better after ranting this silly matter, i still hold that deep grudge with that little boy whom raced with me when i was young, who caused my teeth to be in this state and pulling my confidence level to the lowest point. Isnt he lucky to escape from that compensation i rightfully deserve?

Tmr will be a better day, Jiahui. Cheers. *seeking comforts in myself*