This entry will depict the dark side of Jiahui that you guys didnt know.

One gets materialistic when the brain turns realistic. This is what i posted in Facebook and actually, I'm referring to myself.

I understand now, why in drama series, one can change completely when it comes to monetary affairs. When one is being diminished from a rich family to a pauper background, I understand why one can even kill another to get that position back. Yes, I understand the feeling now, and am getting more realistic now.

I WAS once, not in the least materialistic at all. I told friends that I dont expect my bf to pay for my expenses at all, and that was before i knew you. Holy crap. That was all bullshit! I was too naive in the past. My brain was fried, I believed.

I shdnt have cultivate the habit of allowing you to pay for all my expenses when I'm being with you, because I know it'll be difficult to kick that habit away once it gets into my daily routine. Great, I'm having difficulties now.

Perhaps I was too used to having dinner with you in restaurants after a movie, and now that the economy crisis kicked in, i got upset when you told me you want me to have a dinner at your house. Am not very sure if i'm trying to kick up a fuss or whatever.

We hardly spend time together because of my hectic, packed schedule for the week. I just wanted to dine with you. I'm not asking you to bring me to restaurants anymore, and seriously, I dont mind having a meal in MacDonalds at all. But the fact that you've become so calculative makes me .. uncomfortable.

Perhaps you want me to understand, and yes, i do understand. I can pay for my own expenses.. movie ticket, meals, drink and etc.. i can pay for myself. Why get so calculative over that few dollars? Sometimes you can simply turn me off with your words..

sigh, am i too materialistic or what? or am i not understanding enough?