losing you feels like i've just lost a lump of flesh, and it hurts so badly that i can just break down anytime, anywhere. i'm going through the same old thing over and over again just like the past when i let you go. you're just like water. i could grab hold of a certain amount on my palm, but you just slip it away in between the gaps of my fingers no matter how much i hold onto it. and regardless of how many attempts i've made to hold onto you, you just seem to be so far away, slip through my fingers time and time again. are you aware how much it hurts within me to send you that email?

FUCK! why cant i just wake up? I dont need another repitition of misery in my life anymore!