somehow you made me realise that i cant walk out of that past relationship we had even though it's been a long time since we have walked our separate ways. today, im not sure why, but the scene of me and you in the library surfaces in my mind unknowingly. feeling one sided, i doubt you rmb the small little things, the jokes and the craps we used to share.. ):

i shd have trusted you in the first place, compromise you and just hang on to our r/s.
it's pointless to name all the "shd have(s)", but just let me whine.

held you so tightly that very day, saying,
"im not dreaming, am i? i dont wanna lose you anymore."
and you pulled me close, replying,
"of course not, you silly. come, let me hug you more."
):

tsk. it happened once before, but there wont be another repitition anymore.

i dunch care about whatever being unfair! yes, im not a good gf, neither do i wanna be perfect. im just sad. im sad okie. im sad. my face shows (: but my heart shows ):

sighs. fuck. why is it that even when im in dalian, i can still think of you?