insomnia

Attachment states that we have to fulfil at least 44 hours per week. In short, we have to arrive at 8.30am instead of 9am. Hence i know that i have to get up even EARLIER than usual, so i tried to turn in at 12am. (i consider that early alr horr)

Well, perhaps because i'm not used to turning in early, so you know.. things just dont go the way you want when you wanna sleep early to revitalise your energy for the next day. zz. anyway, i wasnt caught up with fatigue today. A miracle, i guessed. I slept only an hour.

You must be wondering why i slept only for an hour. Starting from 12am, I've been flipping and tossing on my bed. I JUST CANT GET TO SLEEP! GRRR. It's kinda frustrating. So, i stared outside the window for practically an hour. the night scenery was nice. i thought that i'll start to get tired, but my eyelids werent in the least dropping! grrr. Know what i did next? I tried to do 100 sit-ups! good for my tummy, bad for my stomach. I could feel the gastric juices trying to churn some food in my stomach, but because i didnt have my dinner, it churned my stomach instead. Uncomfortable, i rested on my bed without moving an inch. But still, i wasnt tired! fuck.

Played darl's PSP. it's been with me for months alr. HAHAS. anyway, the batt turned flat after playing for another 30 mins. zz. "I've got nothing to do now!", that's what i thought.

Still, my eyes were wide opened! well, for almost anyone who grumbles to me that they cant sleep, i'd advice them to drink some warm milk. Having said that, i wanted to drink some. Went to the fridge, saw an expired packet of HL milk. zz. Sad enough, i gobbled 2 glasses of water instead.

Paused and leaned on the wall while drinking. i thought it was nice to do that, but i was intimidated by some lizards' "squits". no choice, i went back to my room.

saw the clock. it showed 1.45am. wanted to use the com, but it was late alr i guessed. again, i lied on my bed. i tried to close my eyes shut. fuck, it didnt work.

since i've got nothing to do, i started to calculate my expenses for the month. realised that i need to do some monetary management. the more i count, the more i feel that i shd pen them down. so yes, finally i've got things to do. i got up and draw out a expenses, debt cum income draft. got everything settled by around 3am.

started to rub my eyes. yeah! i could feel that i'm tired! great, isnt it? but when i switched off the lights, got on my bed and cuddled with my dearest pillow, my eyes merely shut for 5mins! walau.. damn.

i thought that i'll be damn tired because i have to get up at 6.30. yea.. how great is that? i'll be having only 3 hrs of sleep! been trying to hypnotise myself. no, it didnt work either. so, i browsed all the photos in my phone. a total of 273 pictures. cropped the photos, did some managing of files. done! the time shows 3.30am. shit life!

saw a picutre of my results this sem in my phone. was wondering how in the hell they come up with the gpa. so yea, fondled with some calculations, credits, grades. yea, i finally know how to calculate. i think i have to work extra hard in order to get a 3 at the end of yr 3. ganbatte! so i had my thoughts sort out for an hr. no, this didnt make me tired. i feel like studying. HAHAHAH. i mean i wanna start school life real soon. time showed 4.30am.

grrr. damn pissed off. i'm only left with 2 hrs of sleep if i dont sleep! plugged in my ear piece. tried to listen to some emo soothing songs. no, didnt work either. like wtf. wanted to contact bf. hais. but i rmbed he told me that his sms tone is set to be very loud. didnt wanna disturb him so yea. hais. i listened till 5.30am. that last cuddled of pillow got me into a deep sleep. yea, an hour only.

fuck'd up man. i didnt have red bull for god's sake.