heard the radio playing "what about now". my mood was affected out of sudden after looking at the lyrics. i wont deny. i admit. i do think about him even till this point of time. i know it's unfair.

andrew-some irritating guy, chatted with me yesterday, trying to convince me that i dont love my bf, that i was being unfair to him. pissed, i "retaliated" by telling him that my bf is my everything now.

it's a deception to myself. i lied about i have let go. even when im alone on bus, i will think of him inevitably. it's a lie.. i'm trying to make myself better behind the broken heart.

maybe it's the song. maybe it's me. maybe it's him. one of the lyrics in that song says, "This broken heart can still survive with a touch of your grace" and "What if our love never went away?"

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