yes, i admit im emo. who doesnt? (:

i see my poly cliques more than anyone else. the time spent with them is almost 70% of the times spent with my family as well as some of my other close friends. frankly speaking, i've never enjoyed myself being with them this much today. yup, and i mean it. no, we didnt go out for some chilling or sth. but i enjoyed being with them, today.

yea, it's fun being with them. i laughed alot, and i seriously mean laughing out loudly till my stomach hurts badly. Liping and Jiaqi are the lamest people i've ever come across. and their jokes never fails to bring laughters. My stomach ache alot today because of all the jokes they cracked. yup. somehow i feel that without them, lessons would be extremely bored. i'm glad that there's gf around too. gf as in fengxian. i love hooking on her arms when walking with her and she is another lamer who loves to tease me alot. and there's kelly. they'd gang up together to say about so-and-so and me. but well, it's fun being with them. life does hold ups and downs. sometimes i feel that sadness covers 80% of my life. but no, heaven has been good to me too, i realised. i learnt to appreciate things. with them around, i can feel that i laugh alot, and really from the bottom of my heart.

no doubt, i have not let go. i dealt with another blow today, silently. yes, i was sad within, but i pretended as if nothing had happened. but with those crazy friends of mine around, i laughed all my unhappiness away. somehow everything becomes a form of relaxing, without being emotional with those heart-wrenching stuff. im glad that they're around to play around and crack jokes with me. yup, i laughed out real loudly when walking with them to the station. it feels good, seriously.

and this indicates that i am better off without him. i never laugh that loud during the days when i was with him when being with my friends. whenever they see me, they know i'm being emotional. i did silly things such as staring at the blank for almost any minute i could spend with in last semester, always wearing a frown to school, and not to forget, i even tried to isolate myself from them by plugging in my ear-piece. their jokes were funny, but i merely patronised them with the fake smiles i gave. yup, but not now, cuz whenever they're around, i feel glad. i know they're always there(:

though it's just a short route from school to the mrt station, walking with u guys today just feels great. thanks gf, liping, jiaqi and kelly. i laughed my unhappiness away today.(: <3

i love my family & i love my friends!
i have a bad phobia with relationships, and i mean it.