i sort of read through some of the entries i've blogged within these few weeks and realised that i'm seriously someone very vulnerable and stupid. it's been a month and 4 days since our breakup and im still here blogging sad entries everyday. tsk.. sometimes i really wanna ask myself why im behaving this way. i've heard lots of advices, heard lots of comforting words, heard lots of scolding, heard lots of waking up calls from friends within this period and i know everyone's sick of repeating the same old thing to me like,"dunch think of him anymore" or things like "he's not worth it" etc. i know it's tiring to repeat the same thing over and over again. no one likes to repeat themselves, not even me. well, i think i shd just smile my way through even when im sad? hah.

there's this very nice song in my phone which hasnt been recognised by me ever since i have this song. i seldom listen this song in my phone but after listening to it today, sort of feel that it's a really nice song! though it's an old song, i still think that the lyrics are great. this song is "until i get over you" by christina milian. this song says everything on the feelings im having currently. lyrics shall say it all.(:

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I’m with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain ­
every time I hear your name

The sun won’t shine since you went away
Seems like the rain’s falling every day
There’s just one heart, where there once was two
But that’s the way it’s gotta be,
‘til I get over you…

Walked through the park,
in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can’t escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

When will this river of tears stop fallin’
Where can I run so I won’t feel alone
Can’t walk away when the pain keeps callin’
I’ve just gotta take it from here on my own
But it’s so hard to let go

every sentence in this song reflects totally what im feeling. nice song indeed.
anyway, today has been a peaceful day for me, as in i feel that i dunch really need him? 80% of my mind says im alright, 20% of my heart says im still not over him cuz im thinking of him. but well, at least today hasnt been so bad. (: