okie. it's gonna be an emo entry for today. read it if u wan, if not.. go to the [x] and close this window alright?

today marks the end of our mid sem tests and by rights, i should be feeling very carefree and happy. but seriously, im not.. it's not because i know i wont fare well for the papers. im feeling rather down today due to a question being popped on me after the test paper.

" you and him still tgt? "

seriously, i tot i could keep this from my classmates. i tot that they'll never know that we had broken up cuz we've been behaving the same way like how we used to even when we were together. but well, maybe they're observant enough, i guessed, which is the reason why they asked me this question. maybe i shall post it here that i and him offically has broken up on the 3rd of june. dunch ask me anymore questions regarding me and him. it's just gonna hurt me more. dunch prompt me questions on why we broke up. my heart bled today when i answered this question to a friend. (im not blaming on this friend of mine who asked me this question). i tot my heart's been feeling better lately and i have more or less let go of the past. however, after answering that question, somehow my heart felt an immense pain once again.

i tot i had let go cuz the memories of us being tgt in my mind sort of reduced much during these few days. hais. but why do i still feel so sad when being prompted with that question? i seriously have no idea why im still feeling so miserable. hais..

okie.. no more sighs. though letting go isnt as easy as abc, but come on, i know i can do it man! what's so difficult about letting go?! im not going to show that i cant live without him. i have to forget him, and i will forget him. it's only the first mth after our breakup. i shall give myself 3 mths grace period to forget totally about him. i know i can do it. jiahui, trust urself. you know you can do it.