you know, i really love going out with my friends. giddy, i didnt participate in vertical marathon this year, however, i still received the goodie bag though. maybe i'm really typical, but who isnt when it comes to goodie bags? hahas. after the marathon, we waited and rotted, as well as reading hell loads of newspaper articles as we were waiting for the participants to have their prize giving done. when it's almost done, we proceeded to suntec for our meals. being with them was fun cause' i can really laugh with them. what do u say? it's my cliques you know? :)

let me just blog something really personal.

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maybe im really an idiot when it comes to relationships.
maybe the long duration that we didnt meet make me realise alot of things.
maybe one day i will break all our promises,
when maybe that someday i'll make u cry
and make you burst into tears.
maybe the fault lies in me,
for this i noe, everything lies within me.
maybe the worse of my nightmare is walking in,
walking into the darkness of our relationship.

i noe u've been trying so hard to hold me,
u've been trying hard to please me.
but all i do was ignoring you,
leaving you in misery and blue.
i dunch noe what is happening to me,
or maybe this is just me.
i dunch want this to happen to us.
i dunch wan my feelings for you to fade,
i dunch wan our relationship to come into a irreversible state!

u ask me if i still love you,
with this kind of question,
how am i going to answer you?
though i know deep within me u're the one who isnt able to cheer me up when im down,
i still want you to hold me tight
even when darkness seems to befall,
and happiness cant be found.
maybe right from the beginning i shdnt be impetuous on who i shd be with,
upon being lied by another guy,
i chose you.
a impetuous move as well as an irrational one.
this isnt something fun.

i dunch wanna lose you,
but in this relationship,
everything seems to be so blunt.
what's there to talk,
what's there to speak?
what's there to say,
when there isn't a common topic?
this is a question on how we are going to last.

i want a boyfriend who will make me laugh,
not a boyfriend who will only laugh by oneself.
u're sweet, u're thoughtful, u're nice
u're someone i trust, someone i loved.
someone whom i once loved,
but it's becoming a kind of fondness,
which is the last thing i want it to happen.
everytime i just seem to be able to love someone for only one month plus,
but why does it apply to you too?

everything seems vague to me.
everything seems tough on me.
everything seems depressing to me.
i cant see our future,
but i shd still treasure,
treasure you as my boyfriend,
even when feelings are starting to fade.
i really hope the lost feelings can come back soon.