I thought he wouldnt be in my mind anymore cuz he hurt me, but the fact is, he is in my mind all the while.
I thought time would fade the love i have for him, but the fact is, it didnt.
I thought if he really had kisses on someone, i wont feel heartwrenched, but the fact is, i did.
I thought i wont cry for him anymore, but the fact is, i still did.
I thought that if one day i saw him on the street, i'll be able to say hi to him, but the fact is, i didnt.
I thought that i wont have moodswings if i just walk passed him, but the fact is, i did.
I thought that he wouldn't forget me, but the fact is, he did.
I thought he wouldnt have a gf in the near future when i left him, but the fact is, he did.
I thought he will be someone who'll disappear from my reach, but the fact is, he didnt.
I thought i had let go of him, but the fact is, i didnt.
I thought he loved me, but he is loving someone else now.
I thought that i shouldnt be thinking of him, but the fact is im still missing his presence.

I thought that i can control what im feeling, but the fact is, i cant.
I thought that my current bf makes me let go of him, but the fact is, it didnt.
I thought i did make the right decision to leave him, but the fact is, im regretting.
Ithought im feeling better now, but the fact is im still bleeding from within.
I thought that i could just sleep and forget about him, but the fact is i cant.
I thought i did make the effort to forget him, but the fact is the effort went to the drain.
I thought i can be carefree and smile like before, but the fact is, im cant.
I CANT SMILE LIKE HOW I USED TO

ANY LONGER!

Im mentally drained, im sad, im hurt, im crying and fucked up all over the place. no one can understand how im feeling right now.