For your information, someone just left me a tag which is quite true about myself. "Passerby" is harsh on his/her words though, but he/she is only partially right about me. That person tagged me that i'm desperate for a relationship, which is why im sinking into this state i'm in now. I suppose he/she didnt get the full story. I'm not sure if he/she is my friend, or someone who is really 100% stranger to me or whosoever.

There was once, i questioned my ex-boyfriend.
" We only know each other for 2 days, and now u're asking me to be ur gf?"
and this is what my ex answered. " You dunch have to know me well. does it mean that 10 yrs down the road, you know what kind of person i am and u'll love me?"

The point is, when the feeling is there, it is there. I'm not desperate for a relationship at all. Desperate for a relationship implies that i yearn to be in love. But the fact is no, not in a least bit. Being in love is hectic. For a period of time, i think that singlehood rocks. Frankly speaking, it's difficult for me to trust a guy. Maybe if u're someone who isnt close to me wont know what kind of ordeal i went through, however, i myself know that it's just PURELY difficult. and let me emphasize, trust doest mean like. I can fall for someone very easily( that was in the past, please!), but it doesnt mean i trust that someone whom i fall for. It's different thing.

When i chose him, one reason was because i was being lied by another guy who likes me. Another reason was because i know that my current boyfriend can be trusted. He acquired the key factor of being my boyfriend, which is RESPECT. We had known each other for around 3 weeks then. *side track* I know my first ex "inside-out" for more than 2yrs before we got together. However, my feelings still fade, too! So, what's gotta do with the time and knowing each other party better? It's still going round my head again and again though.

Well, maybe humans are only concern and sees only the superficials and didnt try to get the facts right before they start concluding anything. I know what i want, and i know what is best for me. As much as im concern, i still love my boyfriend, and im hanging onto this relationship cuz i really dunch wish to let such a great guy go. It isnt easy to find someone who really loves me this much. I should try to love him for who he is, and not find faults in him. I suppose, in a relationship, there wont always be tons and tons of topics to talk about. So long as someone is able to break the silence and the love is still there for each other, there isnt a need to worry so much(:

In conclusion, for the past few entries i've made, i reckoned i had given too much a thought. hahahah. stuppid me. LOL. i guessed it's just that i didnt meet him for too long alr.

"heed this advice if not u're going to suffer this again and again..." the greatest joke for the day. hahas. Imagine some kind of priest saying this.. "heed this advice blah blah blah.." LOL. i guess ppl shd be concern about Mas Selamat instead of tagging me with "advices". Why not give some advice on how we should nab Mas Selamat?(: i think i'll be very grateful if u can provide me with some. cause' at least i can share it with my friends:D thanks passerby, if u can offer me some "advices" on nabbing the prime criminal.