this is the 100th entry in my blog. lols. alright, i noe i'm laming.

went to ecp today. well, as usual, i was late. something cropped up at home. my mum wanted mi to bathe my 1yr-old sis. and after bathing her, she was throwing some tantrums and was crying and screaming like nobody's business. my mum was busy at tt time, so i had to take over to look after my sis. my other sis were there too, but they were jus watching her cry=.= so, i had to start entertaining my sis and had to carry her around, however she still did not give in. she was still crying. and after tt my mum took over, so i rushed out. but how dumb was i. i actually forgot my blades! so i went home and took it. sighs, waste time indeed.

reached ecp and went straight to mac. well, din see any sight of them. so i went out to have a walk, and decided to blade cuz the skates were damn heavy. when i wanted to put on my skates, i saw one tall and one short gals walking towards burger king, and instinct told mi tt it's xt and col. and i was right(: went in to start eating.

went blading next. no doubt it's normal blading. hmmm, i wont deny tt i did emo. so i started to blade very fast and got separated from the rest. went up the slopes alot of times, closed my eyes when i was going down. i jus got very sad, and i noe what's the reason. i jus cant figure out why did i still have moodswing because of tt reason. sighs. i really couldnt take it, so i went to a bench near the beach and feel the breeze screening thru my face. as i looked at the sky and the sea, hearing the sound tt the wave provides, many things went thru my mind. i got even sadder, and some tears jus started brimming in my eyes. couldnt let go of the past was the reason. but the main reason i shall not say it. hais. i wiped off those tears, and closed my eyes, took in a very deep breathe and open my eyes again. i sat there for quite some time. then off i bladed back to the rental store, cuz i noe they'll be there. mood started to get better when i reached there bahhs. ya.

after returning the blades, the girls will go to bathe, while the guys, as usual, they'd blade. i and suan did not took off our blades, so we continued to skate around while the other girls were walking to the toilets. at first, the moodswing was still i the process of recovering. so i bladed away from the girls again. took suan's slipper and ran away from her, cuz i lost the scissors paper stone, and was supposed to take the slippers, but she wanted them back, so i ran away. and she tried to catch up, but to no avail. lols. wen tback to find her, and showed her the slippers in my hands. she told mi to give her back, but i did not and continued to blade fast. and there start our competition-racing. lols. she scolded alot of "knn", i think i influenced her. she din say these kinda things in the past de, mus be i kept using them. lols.

den after blading to the toilet, there's still no sight of the gals. i asked for "caterpillar", and she agreed(: well, not really caterpillar, was jus holding hand side by side, not the front and back. and WE bladed damn fast, was a nice experience. when i was tired, i'd ask her to take over and pull mi. and when i've recovered, i'd take over and pull her. both of us were damn fast. WAS INDEED VERY NICE WHEN THE STRONG BREEZE BRUSHED THRU OUR FACES(: hopefully there'll be a next time. lols. and ya, no doubt there's sure bound to be muscle ache in our legs, cuz we were damn fast. it's like really racing like nobody's business. so nice larr(: wont forget this experience. some kinda even more fun den blading caterpillar with ch, jc, kam and sb. so fun, so nice, no pressure. weets~ smile x100, no more emo in mi liaos.

after bathing, the guys went bathing. and after the cleaning up, we went to the rock. sighs, i wont deny tt memories of my ex did occupy my whole mind. but it's onli for a while, and not totally was him in my mind onli. the reason why i looked so glum on the rock wasnt because of my ex, it's because of tt person. i kept telling myself tt i have to let it go, have to. but, wasnt so bad after all, cuz the breeze was nice. suan looked emo too. asked her if she's alright not, she asked mi bak the same question. den i asked her the second time, she said she's fine. den sb looked extremely emo. threw many stones into the sea, and was quite amazed as he threw them for quite a long distance. hmm, kam was at there playing with jy, and they were so cute when they started bickering with each other. kam played with jy's slipper and it almost dropped into the sea. but it got stuck on the rock, and he retrieved it with some risk there. cuz he looked as if he was going to drop into the sea anytime. but thank god, he succeeded in retrieving. everyone looked relieved cuz his alright. a close shave to death man, lols.

den after tt, we went to eat at bedok. had quite a big feast, was damn full. hmm, ate curry chicken noodle and a fried banana, plus a drink. next, trained home. den then i knew sth and it got mi into a state of shockness. lols. can anyone tell mi how to be observant? den going home tt time, i think i saw my ex. was jus a glimpse of him, cuz i bladed home. i heard someone calling mi, i turned and saw him, but i jus continued to balde home. bad sias mi.

i wanna run away from this and from u as well. feeling was weird when hands come into contact. i jus dunch noe y i got uncomfortable when seeing u talking on the phone. tried to avoid u but couldnt make it. i dunch noe what i'm thinking, still like or wat? the mild feeling i had for u is still enuff to make mi sad like sec4. i wanna hack care this, i dunch wanna live like this anymore. but it's jus cant stop torturing mi like this. hais. can i really stop this, can i?