please. if u're my friend, dunch continue to read wat i've blogged kies. i dunch wan anymore consoles. cuz i noe ppl will get sick and tired of repeating the same things. i jus wanna voice all the frustration in mi out onto this blog. even if u've read, pretend tt u din read kies. dunch give mi comment. i'll feel better this way. thanks.

well. it's almost 12am. maybe a better day for mi? maybe it'll be the start of a new day and those dark clouds covering mi wil be gone? maybe new day begets miracles? hais. maybe?

dunch noe why i'm feeling rather down now. hais. felt like my heart's bleeding again. but i'm okie. ya, i'm alright. hais. maybe i'm jus being too sensitive?

the immense feeling of tt person avoiding mi jus makes mi miserable when come to think of it. is tt person trying to avoid mi? hais.

perhaps i texted tt person to the wrong hp? or maybe tt person jus dunch wanna reply mi?

maybe it really cant concentrate when studying outside? or simply, tt person's jus trying hard to avoid mi? no replies means not going? ya? hais

why the fuck am i always thinking of tt person? there's jus no way we'll get back together again why am i still clinging onto this?!!! hais

i'm just being such a fool. i've hurt myself umpteen times until i'm so immune to the hurt? nope. i'm not immune to it. if i'm immune, i wont be sad now. hais.

i lost count how much tears i've dropped for tt person, how many days and months i'm faking my smiles.

ppl ard mi, inclusive of tt person, persuaded mi to let go. but can anyone tell mi how the hell can u let go of a person whom u love so much before, or maybe now too..? HOW?

it's not tt i wanna cling ono the past, it's jus tt can anyone ever control what ur mind wants to think; what ur mind wants to recall? can u?

i've kept myself occupied. told myself i can live without tt person. sometimes i proved tt sentence rite, but sometimes it us seems tt i cant do without tt person. fuckkk

a chinese saying goes,"deng jiu jiu dou mei you". how true can it get. hahahah. come, laugh with mi man, laugh with a noob who's feeling sad now, laugh with mi(: hais. smiling face shows tt i'm happy okie. i'm alright.

hais. i'm jus a fucking person with fucking thinkings plus fucking nuisancical to tt person, resulting to tt person's trying hard to avoid bahhs. ya? nodnodnod. hais.

come on. can anyone wake mi up inside? can anyone jus scold mi? i'll be grateful if anyone can jus come up to mi, right to my face, lecture mi till i can jus let it out. cuz i dunch wanna suppress anymore.

can anyone find a machine to brain wash mi?

if only someone can make mi happy, i'll be grateful plus consoled. hais. no such person exist anyway. making mi happy is a difficult thing.

suan liaos. i'll go study now. occupy myself serves as the only solution to make mi forget tt person temporary? maybe it's also a good thing tt tt person aviod mi bahhs. so i can forget about everyth? ya?

anyone out there wanna vent ur anger out? vent it on mi. scold the fuck out of u, as well as mi. i'll be glad. i'm serious. hais.

ppl who cannot let go are ppl who live in misery, and tt's mi i reckoned(:(:(:

i'm tired of sad faces, i'll jus replace ): as (:

cuz in actual fact. the jiahui u noe is always nv happy before. nodnod. i dunch noe wat is happiness ever since we went separate ways. i felt loved from yu bahhs, but tt's not really the happiness i ever want, i noe.

hais. jiahui, take care. maybe someday u'll be happy. u brought this to urself. yes. i've brought misery to myself.