hmm. okie. last entry for the day. went to jieying blog. heard the blog song of jieying's and erm.. tt song rake up some memories in mi when working in ss. i mean the days tt i just started working-december, whereby this song is jus being released from Milk.
hmmm. kinda miss esther, wanting, xiaobai, fangmei, jingfen, and the two guys- ty and johnson. hahas. wat's more, i rmb how we're forced to wear the christmas hat when working. working was bored those days, but working was fun at tt point of time too. cuz these students were there bahhs(:
ty and ah john forvever so damn funny. esther had rumours with ah john. hahas. den hais. got a TERRIBLE RUMOUR with ty=.=. a very very bad experience. we were both very angry with ah yu, my ex, who always make fun of us. damn. and we were like forever avoiding each other cuz we dunch wan ppl to make fun of us. hahas. i even rmb tt he coincidentally came up to eat the same time as mi. and when we were eating our lunch, ppl dunch show any mercy on us. they continue to tease us like hell can.
wtf. tt time i onli ate one mouthful of rice from my lunch they provided and i threw away my rice cuz i wanted to run away from what they were talking about. zzz. i was angry. i was impetuous and irrational. end up i had gastric pains badly for tt day.
lols. suo le ye qi guai. i've got affinity with ty. i rmb before going to work, i went to market. den i saw ty and ah john on the way to work. zzz. suay. den go out with others, coincidentally met ty at city hall. zzz. tt time is the most.. wahhs. i think he told ah john about it and ah john told ah yu. ARGHHH!! den walaus ehhs. ah yu spread till the whole ss noes. zzz. den i avoided ty again and he avoided mi too. hahas. rumour this kinda thing can kill friendship man. but our friendship was saved in the hands of ours when we held conversations during eating lunch one day. lols. good friends are forever(:
end up ah yu,who always spread those unwanted rumours, became my stead, and now my ex. ya. after ty stopped working, yu told mi he was jealous tt i had such a great affinity with ty. i was like =.='' (but i wanna say, i dunch believe in affinity, i believe in miracles. lols)
okie. enuff of ss. enuff of them alr. feelings have faded for them liaos. i jus wanna noe how they are onli. but somehow fate dunch decreed mi to do so. cuz i've lost contact with my ex alr. sorry, ah yu.. i din mean to avoid u. i jus din noe how i shd face u. even till now i still have no idea. u're good to mi. it's jus tt u're not the one my heart truely seek for. i opened my heart, but i din know tt i cant let go. hais. i'm jus sorry for hurting u badly.. okie, he's not reading this. so shall stop here. hais. guilt was wat held mi back the most when i said those things to him..
feelings have faded for ah yu and ty. my feelings for them now is like plain sea water cascading down from the waterfall. irreversible and gone.. forever gone liaos. feelings are gone for them alr.
i'm alright, so dunch worry. i'm still the happy jiahui u know once upon a time(:
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