i'm so damn sad now. my heart's bleeding. eyes are tearing. hais.

two things:
1) got a call from someone and tt call ruin my whole mood
2) got blocked in msn from yu

hais. i really am very sad. my heart jus hurts a lot ALOT!!
tt person called mi to clarify something. tt person tot tt i told it's ex that tt person sent mi home. wat the hell!! i din say such things lorrs for goodness sake!! and tt accusation, tt tone, tt voice, tt interrogation from tt person jus cuts my heart into bits and pieces. it's bleeding non-stop!! so, tt person rather believe it's ex words rather than mine? so, in tt person, i'm one tt will sow discord between the both of them tt i will say things to it's ex like "ur ex sent mi home when we were out together the previous time"? so, i'm such a person in tt person's heart that tt person have to call mi and ask bout it and put on loud speaker for it's ex to listen? am i really such a person? is my image in tt person really tt bad and bitchy and unscrupulous when it comes to love and relationship? am i?!! am i?!! hais. those tears jus cant stop rolling. i'm really hurt. i really am.. it's just like new scalp has grown to cover the wound, but it was noe dig out again and u noe it bleeds?! hais. so i'm really tt unscrupulous bitch tt will sow discord btw the two of u within u. i tot caring for u is natural. but.. i've got hurt when caring for u.. hais. it really bleeds inside. so tt's mi in u.. so tt's mi in u.. SO TT'S MI IN U..!! hais..

** if u're not happy wit wat u're reading, if u wanna quarrel, do wateva u deem fit. i just got too much hurt from u.. u'll nv understand tt the person u trust most wont wanna believe u at all and would rather believe in others. u'll nv noe tt feeling!! this hurt is almost the same as the table and chair incident. since u would rather believe in others, i see no point y am i still treating u as my best pal.. u'll nv noe how much tears i've dropped BECAUSE OF YOU!! **

tearing like hell..

next. yu. hais. blocked mi in msn.. what did i do? i noe i gav him att. and i'm sorry for tt. but cant he believe tt i really din noe it's him calling mi? cant he believe tt i really din see him walking pass mi? cant he?!! he sounded so sad in his msn nick " when i call out for u, u din wanna care and jus walk off. i cant do anyth but to leave quietly.." i really din noe it's him.. i really dunch noe!! and i've explained to him why cant he understand?! why is it tt everyone believe tt i am such a person they think i am in them? why?!! am i really tt bad? tt kind of hypocrite? tt kind of liar?? am i? am i? liewjiahui!! stop crying larr!! hais

why is it tt everyone thinks tt way of mi? i'm really sad tt no one will truely trust mi or sth.. i really dunch feel any love from anyone.. so i'm tt kind of person tt they think of mi. so tt's mi within them.. SO TT'S REALLY MI WITHIN THEM IN THEIR HEART!!

*tears *bleed *cries *helpless *disappointed *emptiness

the two of u will nv noe how hurt i am today, this very minute, this very juncture.