hais. i noe i've blog my entries jus now..
but now i'm feeling rather sad. hais. i dunch noe wat's wrong with mi.
jus now hear sad songs.
den somehow yu come into my mind.
i've been waiting for him to be online almost everyday.
i mean not waiting. it's tt i jus wanna see if he's online or not.
so tt the chance of him chatting wit mi is higher.
ya i noe i'm not taking initiative to contact him or chat with him or sth.
hais. i jus dunch noe wat's wrong.
i noe if he online i'll block him.
but if he's not online i'm like this.
if he chat wit mi i'll feel bored.
but if we din chat i'll feel tt someth's lacking.
hais. WTF.
I NOE I MYSELF IS LIKE SO DUMB OR STH.
hais. i jus wanna noe whether he's fine or not.
i jus wanna noe how has he been.
when he's jus working downstairs i din treasure it.
now tt he's transferred i'm acting like this.
i noe this thinking is only temporary. i can nv be faithful unless i truely love someone.
i dunch wanna miss him. i dunch wanna think of him.
i noe i've let go lerrs. but why like this?
why am i still so concern about his well-being?
why is it tt tots jus come into my mind when i eat fish-slice noodle?
why? hais. emo.
sometimes some things jus cant seem to diminish from ur memories.
esp sweet memories. hais.
ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! i feel like pouring out my sorrows. but to who?
hais. if i pour it to someone else, tt person cant help mi in anyth too.
i'll only make tt person worry or sth.
hais. only to blog tt i can write out wat i'm thinking. hais.
why am i also getting myself hurt when thinking of the past?
it's always either u or him tt i'm thinking of.
and both of u are always the reason for misery.
i'm not blaming both of u.
i'm blaming myself.
why cant i control my emotions well? hais. i felt like tearing.. hais.
felt so cold in this lonely nite. i'm all alone here.
hais.

*god, jus bless yu tt he's fine, pls.
the only way to comfort myself now. hais.
emo...